Wow, quite a lot you've been through Webby. Here's a saying that I like to live by, but I know you've heard it before as well :P
(btw, I was in Philly a few weeks ago, as an extra in Creed 2)But it ain't about how hard you hit. It's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward; how much you can take and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done!